Hello from years

Saya kembali,
Apa kabar? Sepi rasanya berbulan-bulan tanpa menulis, dan membagi emosi disini

Days run well, blessing years i said
Banyak berkah dan life lesson yang membantu mendewasakan batin
Membuat saya lebih banyak diam, merangkai barisan kata singkat pada socmed, menyisakan(membangun) sebuah ruang saat datangnya kesedihan

Karena benar selalu ada dua sisi dalam hidup
misal BAHAGIA-TIDAK BAHAGIA, SUKSES-TIDAK SUKSES, BERANI-TIDAK BERANI, begitu seterusnya.

Sedikit serius? Iya, saya menjadi benar-benar melakukannya karena terlalu banyak yang terjebak dalam kesedihan tanpa tahu langakah preventifnya. No, saya tidak ingin menjadi orang selanjutnya.

Meski saya tidak bermaksud membagi kisah sedih disini, namun, awal SEMESTER 4 sepertinya mengajak saya mendaki lebih tinggi. Usaha dan niat sangat diperlukan untuk mencapai puncak. Tapi lihatlah apa yang terjadi pada niat saya itu.

Persis ketika saya memutuskan jenis penilitan akhir dikampus baru-baru ini. Terbawa oleh suasana 'ingin cepat selesai' saya memilih jenis penelitian descriptive yang mencakup metode qualitative dan quantitive. Awalnya begitu bangga karena dipastikan akan berhasil menemukan data yang valid. Namun, itu cuma berlangsung beberapa minggu. Karena segera setelah saya mencari lagi tata cara mengumpulkan data, saya menemui sebuah metode yang belum pernah saya lihat sebelumnya.

Mengandalkan rasa penasaran saya ternyata tidak mampu membayar apapun kecuali daftar artikel yang harus dibaca secepat mungkin. Saya terjebak.

Soulsista

Sejak SD sampai sekarang masih awet sami si Cupsugar sama-sama berbagi cerita dan imajinasi. Terimakasih ay :') sudah menjadi sahabatku....

11th may 2013

Proud and appreciative. two verbs are produced from a hard work. but clearly, when someone won a competition they are proud of and was cheered, while failing often overlooked without seeing his hard work.

Funny how people keep complaining within a process and a result but giving comment is only worthless. keep on moving. because when people complaining, means that you are on a half way of your goal. that's it.

Pride and appreciation were costly but the fruit is very sweet.

Yah, sweater when it's true #LOL
and prises to ALLAH, the result was so great. Even i expected more but at the very beginning, i didn't set it too much therefore i didn't hold any regretting though the bestie said i should have got the blessing from mom at first but i ate them. The Band* came as just what i did, it relieved right after i checked it. Really.

And mommy, don't worry, you beautiful lil' girl will be on your side in a long term still and forever.

I have done my best, even might not be the very best of mine and i feel so much enough to know how far i can walk (now) at least i know. myself. the competence.

There is a different between giving up and knowing when you had enough. 

I am not giving up in any points but rather to take a moment of believing that there's another way of catching the goal at the very soon time. #noted

I believe with GOD disposal, never early never late and i love it much :')

Ignition of dreams

Hola halu....
Wiwh, what's hot these days??? Em a lot actually hihihi.
A bit of dreams, few of loves, but over all is about decision. And i thank GOD because life is coming with its two sides. Black and Blue. Sweet and Bitter. Good and Bad. Trial and Error. Beauty and Beast. But, we all know that some people don't suit with those choices. They tend to make additional on their own. As what shows in a movie. Plan A-B and C or even D. And, I do oftentimes.

Well, a defragmenter is needed mostly. It requires a wider space to what i am having now on my mind. The traffic might be so horrible and feels like the vehicles hitting one another. Been busy, takes off almost of my attention. No pain no gain. Don't you think what makes me such noisy?? I do well, for sure guys.

Actually, this writing is like a coffee break for me after few days of a pile of assignments and all the deals. And thank GOD its work out for best in the beginning, and i hope for last. I believe there will be no progress without any effort. It takes me far from fear.

Talking about hope, my LDR runs well but i thought i did a crack on one of its side. I hope it doesn't make a matter of problem. Even if it occurs, i will not take it as a problem, instead of making it as a lesson for remembered. I know i am not that wiser, but i should be. I am trying.

But having these, kind of life feels to what I have. The songs which playing on my videolist seems very striking in the heart of mine. Theirs like a sound of mind, my mind (maybe) therefore  it scares me to death. It might be my only feeling. A woman. So excessive #LOL but I am way brave - sweeter - smarter and bolder than I was, hehee

Everyone has a dream big, high and hope for a very best ending in line with the provisions of GOD :'), Luck for all. DO YOUR BEST AND BE THE BEST

lucky strike #blessed

gnawing

in a vast willing of a demand

you are swarming

sorrounding my body ,mind, live

daunting

even to my shadow

but

keep it up

thriving the wings i have given

playing the strength of my finger

and

the one

would awake yours

with my passion's explode

could possibly smoulder onto you

i am gratified

that you could release

me

from where i was made

nevertheless

don't take any hesitation

i will show you rise dramatically

distinctive of a thrust

JR

i am having trouble breathing

stay away

stay

trembling down to my knees

it shouldn't be that bad by the time

keep talking, rise your voice up

and i will say

say i adore you when you are not listening

a chick flick revolves with jumpy

never fade but

a big pile

how could i live with that?

that?

how could i

oh i

can i just live with that?

oh my

spatters of passion

Privacy is not Plastic

I just finished making a very pleasant conversation. Having a plenty of free time should be good for a calling since the signal was cooperative too. Miles away but seems so close.

Going to midnight i had a short chat with a friend. One of the very talkactive. Talking about some stories of junior highs chool and who was the man i am with now. In short, the conversation got broader and the thing i didn't expect happend. Oh no, my mind suddenly felt uneasy. Something better should be there.

I didn't do it on purpose of what we weren't expected. All i thought was just hid the privacy, that's it. Unfortunately i was loosing my grip. Without realizing that it possibly would occur some suspicious spot.

Shortly, we argued. Telling that i knew i was wrong wouldn't make anything better. Even the reply had said a kind of acceptance of sorry but, i knew it wasn't really is, through it was exactly what i feel if you do it too. I should have told you before. I should.

If you know, i never thought i would be like this. So, selfish.

The friend that i talked with was a friend called friend no more. Yes, he was a he but no more extra words for him. And cannot be equated with my besties.

I am not plastic as your thought. Privacy is needed in order to get rid people of stalking with our bussiness. Since the very first i have told you that if only i had our own field to share what we felt so that would be remarkable. However, it couldn't been accomplishde because the demands of situation. I wish you were here. So you couldn't only see these ruth but directly see the writer's eyes. 

Never regret. If it's good, It's wonderful. If it's bad, then It's an experience -Victoria Holt-